Pain that shows through (Tohru)

[Akito Sohma]

Akito had come to Tohru's work one night, he just had no idea of why he was even here. He just wanted to make sure that he was going to hang out here for a while. There was a bird on his hand, he just wondered what he was going to do he had taken his medicine, and the white pills that Hatori had usually given him if he ever got an outburst. He just didn't know what he was going to do here if he had been thinking for a while since he had started dating Sakura. He had been pacing back and forth, he was mostly dressed in regular clothes since he was going out. Akito was wondering why he had cared about Tohru now. He was very much had been thinking. Akito had missed Tohru only when he had stopped to think about it. He was wondering why he had even love Tohru, wanted to be her friend then he just wondered why he had even cared now. He was looking at the this place, he just walked in. He had no idea of what was going to do about this entire place.

He had come in, he just wondered what he was just knew that he was going to figure out what he was wanting to do about this. He just petted the bird just gently enough. Akito had stood right there, he just wondered what he was going to do he had felt the bad karma was going to hurt someone who he had loved since he had done bad things in his life. Nobody knows what its like to be the bad man to be the sad man behind blue eyes. No one knows what its like to feel to be hated when people only tells lies my dreams seems to be empty as much my conscience to be. When love is vengeance that is never free. No one knows what to feel these feelings, and I had always blamed her. None of my pain can show through since I won't let it. Akito thought.

"I would like to talk to Miss Honda." Akito said. He had mostly didn't like his mother since he was mistreated by her. He was just didn't show many emotions, he just hated being mistreated by his mother. He was mostly insecure, and composed if there was any trust in him it was mostly hidden. There was a lot of times that his innocence does shown through. He had loathsome towards Tohru until sometime in his life that he had seen the kindness in her he just wondered why Tohru had shown him such kindness. He was very much had been trying to figure out why Tohru had shown him the most of the time he had been afraid that someone would come into his heart, make him happy, and then leave him. He just looked around the place, and he had found it peaceful. Akito had no wonder why his mother had hated him. He was very much been insecure since he could remember. He had hated the fact that Tohru had come into his heart, then make a place, and make him happy. "Miss Honda are you here?" Akito asked.

[♥Tohru Honda♥]

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You took my heart, deceived me right from the start

You showed me dreams, I wish they'd turn into real

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Tohru had finally been let out of the hospital after weeks of getting better. And in all that time she had gotten to know that her friends even though she had forgotten about them, still cared about her. Hopefully as she sees their faces again they will help her regain the memories, those precious memories which had been taken from her. Yuki had spoken with her in the hospital but he seemed so sad that she didn't seem to remember him. Inside her heart and deep down, Tohru felt as she has always known Yuki and the other people who he had mentioned. Such as Momiji, Kyo....Hatori and a few others. The sound of his voice had reminded her the night of the accident, when he spoke Tohru could tell that Yuki had been one of the ones at the scene of the accident when she was hurt. He said he had even stayed by her beside when she was unconcious, so why did she still feel so bad. These thoughts drifted through her mind as she mopped the floor slowly in the building where she worked, her eyes were downcast and some of her coworkers had even told her that she just didn't have that energetic spirit anymore like she did before hand. But each day she would try and force a smile to show them that everything was okay even though it wasn't. As soon as she was done mopping, Tohru picked up the garbage bags and took them to the elevator.

Pressing the button she gave a small sigh, there had to be someone who could help her get her memories back. As the elevator dinged and the doors opened, Tohru just stood there frozen like a statue. Slowly turning her head to look down the hall her eyes came to rest upon a young man, and he had asked to see HER. But that wasn't what made her freeze to the spot, it was the way he spoke...his voice. Why did his voice send chills down her body all of a sudden and just make her want to rub her arms. Shaking her head she left the bags in front of the elevator and headed down to greet the person who had asked for her by name. She only stopped a few feet away as she seemed to stare at the other, as if trying to figure him out. Of course not wanting to be rude she quickly decided to speak up. "If your looking for me, i'm right here". Tohru felt a little nervous even though she was only a few feet away from the boy, and why did he want to see her anyways. And how did he even know where she worked or knew her name.

Tohru still held a few scars from the accident upon her features, such as on her face and a few bruises still on her arms. Those were going to take a little while longer to heal since she had been hit so hard, the doctors and nurses had told her she was lucky to even still be alive after the ordeal she went through. Tilting her head lightly she stepped closer to the boy, after she had gotten out of the hospital there was talk she should go back to live with her family. Tohru of course refused and had just randomly blurted out in her hospital room she wanted to go be with Yuki and uh.....Shigure was it. He said they had been taking her care of her and would continue to do so, there was still college coming up as well.[/center][/size]

[Akito Sohma]

Akito was looking straight at Tohru. He saw the bruises that the accident cause. He looked down, and he just don't know what to do anymore. Meeting Sakura was mostly had been a good change on him. He was thinking of what he should do. He just wanted to make sure that he had reintroduced himself. "My name is Akito Sohma, I'm a part of the Sohma family the head of the family of it. You and I know each other kind of before the accident happen. You shown me the most kindness that I never expected from my mother." Akito said.

Akito was looking at her, and he just didn't know what he was going to do about this. He just didn't know what he was even going to do about his own life anymore. He gotten memories of her talking to him as a friend would, a few tears went down his face, and he just didn't know what he was even going to do anymore. He just gotten confused. He just don't know what he was even going to think anymore. He was off he must be he had considering of making friends with Tohru.

"This hurt deeper than I thought it did. The pain of my mother mistreating me didn't heal with time I am insecure about what I had always wanted. You look beautiful tonight. Would you find in your heart to make this pain go away. You said once to me that Hatori and Shigure would be sad if I had died, and being surrounded around by death wasn't good. I wanted to hear that again. You sounded like back then like you were trying to make friends with me then this accident happen. I am confused, then the pain doesn't go away from inside me." Akito said. Akito had looked at him, and he just hadn't know what he was going to do at the moment he was talking to her as a friend would. He just never know that someone would be kind to him. He felt that he did a terrible thing to Tohru Honda. He just wanted to figure out what he was going to do about this. He just didn't know what he was ever going to do about his life. He just stood closer to Tohru, he just didn't know to ask Tohru for her forgiveness. He just wanted to know why he was even going to do about his entire life. He just looked at her, he had given her a small smile. He had rubbed his neck, he was getting a little shy like he had used to. Akito didn't have any words that he could say to Tohru to ask her for her forgiveness.

"Do you think everyone is capable of being forgiven? Or is some people like me beyond to be ever forgiven for the bad things that I had done in my past. All I know was people mistreating me that's all I ever knew you had seen my tears that I had cried. I just broke down, cried in front of you, and can you find it in your heart to forgive me. I keep thinking people won't forgive me. I just wanted someone to be a true friend to me. I don't know what I am able to do. I kept thinking why I am even alive it hurts deeper than I thought I had been living on borrowed time. My body isn't made to be living for too long I keep beating the odds. I want to talk to you for a while." Akito said.

Akito couldn't know why he was even talking this way towards her even after the sinister smirk that he had given her the night that she got hit by the car. He just wondered what made a change in him he had realized it was Sakura she had a special power to pull out the nice and kind Akito that he got buried deep in him. Of course, Akito was so insecure that he didn't know what he had wanted. He was very much had been wanting to make sure that he had thanked Sakura for being his light in his darkness.

[♥Tohru Honda♥]

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You took my heart, deceived me right from the start

You showed me dreams, I wish they'd turn into real

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Tohru just stood there a little confused still, this boy seemed so familiar and yet it's like his face was a far off memory from a nightmare of some kind. He seemed to be looking right at her or was he looking at the marks of her arms and face from the accident. Tohru wanted to try everything to get the memories she had lost that night. Yuki....yes Yuki kept saying there were so many people who cared for her and loved her so very much. It pained her heart to hear those words because all she could do was put faces to names, yet she also knew in her heart these people Yuki spoke about were her closest friends. When he spoke his name and began to explain he was the head of the Sohma family she felt a twinge in her heart, hearing him go on that they had known each other before the accident and that she had shown him such kindness that he never expected from his mother. "Akito Sohma, I see. It's very nice to meet you...again. I show kindness to people when they feel sad, or lost. Even when they are troubled, so i'm glad I showed you kindness Akito". Tohru gave her usual smile.

Tohru was the kind of girl who would be there to hug you when you cry, to step into the middle of a fight and try to break it up not caring for her safety. She would pick you up if you fell or to just sit beside you and talk with you. So hearing that she had done something so wonderful for Akito just made her relax a little and not seem so uptight with him being at her work. Maybe it wasn't best for them to be standing in the hall like this, it was well.....awkward and not really a place to talk. "Oh I almost forgot, I have to take the garbage out". No sooner did she say that when she heard one of the older ladies say it was okay, they would take care of it. But but......it was her job to do that, they really didn't have to. No use in arguing huh, soon the garbage was gone and she turned her attention back to Akito as he began to speak once more. Tohru began to fiddle with her hair as he continued to speak, a small blush kept across her cheeks when he said she looked beautiful. "My mother loved me very much, i'm sorry yours mistreated you. And if I did say that, which I did but I just don't remember. Then I was right to say that. It's not good to be surrounded by death, especially when there are those who care for you so much".

He wanted her to make his pain go away, to help him not feel so insecure. She watched as he came a little closer to her, and saw a small smile on his lips form. Tohru could see something was troubling Akito like a heavy weight on his chest that he wanted to get off, if he really wanted to say anymore she was right here to listen. Slowly reaching out she took his hand and led him away to where they could talk in private, there was a room which the employees used with a sofa and some pop machines and stuff for snacks. Taking him inside the room she closed the door and took him to the sofa sitting down with him. Though there was still that feeling of being insecure at the back of her mind she was trying to push away, why was it when she looked at Akito she wanted to be afraid and at the same time act like a loving mother figure too.

When he started to speak again she just listened to it all, taking it all in and just letting it sink into her thoughts. Tohru held onto his hand tightly, but no too tight. She felt like this poor boy before her could shatter into a million pieces he seemed so fragile. "I think everyone should be forgiven, no matter what they have done in their life. If I have seen your tears I was probably there to wipe them away, and if you have done something to me in the past I forgive you Akito. You may be fragile like the butterflies wings, but I know you have a good heart as well beating in your chest".[/center][/size]